food for thought
Date: Thursday, February 22, 2007
my parents came back at bout 8 plus.
i was kinda surprise cos they always end up in s'ppore bout 11 plus. that would be normal den.
my cousin came as well. my 'tang ge'.
i was bored to have stayed at home for the whole day and jio him out to accoustic.
but my parents disagree and didnt want me to go out.
but so stubborn, i insisted.
but thought of spending what little i have,
i changed my mine.
accompanied him for supper downstairs. with my bro alan as well.
he talked to me.
talked sense into this tiny dumby brain.
knocking the info that i should not always make papa mummy angry.
and i am the only girl they have,
they are so fucking worried abt me yet i come back s'pore alone.
and regulars ktv pubs.
slap yourself huisan!
i am so sorry.
how can i spend so unnecessarily when my daddy scrimps on a 2 dollar packet rice...
how can i insist to come back when i never know malay, and nvr knew the directions?
how could i always love ktv and stay till l;ate at night?
papa mummy, i really love you.
it just doesnt tally from my actions and words.
i really know, if anything happens to me, it is my family,
who will stand, and support.
and give me the hand when i fall.
and i love my ah po as well.
i really love her very much.
i know she's old. and have not much time left.
but cos of what we speak, and little time we spend together,
i couldnt concern much.
only a massage of her legs. and a hug before i came back s/'pore.
did you know that my ah po raise me up from baby till bout 4 or 5?
i came s'pore to attend kindergarten afterwards, and she couldnt put her heart at ease, and came over to see me in class still.
i am so scared to go back for army. nobody knows how it feels.
mayb only a little worried for me.,
but it is me, to deal with and go through it,/
and fwens can only be and do so much.
and who are the real ones>?
who really love, care and be there?
Signing Off~